Flying Solo: Why am I single?

Travelling alone seems to provoke a very different side of me. A more contemplative version of myself, if I may call it that. A more ambitious and self-aware lady with all the confidence in the world. I’m not scared or shy, and I don’t have to pretend to be someone else. I’m just me, and that’s perfectly fine.

Solo trips, for me, are a necessity, not just a want. I need them to ground me and allow me to think critically about the things I say and the things that I do. What I think I am doing versus why I’m doing it. So my encouragement to you is for you to take a trip out by yourself, maybe to the movies or a restaurant you have meant to try. Bring a notebook and pen and take some time to think. You may find that you live in a false reality, or better yet, notice that you are growing and in alignment with your goals and dreams.

Honestly, the trip could be as short as an hour and a half trip to Toronto to a 4 or 16-hour trip someone (talk about jumping from 0-100 real quick). Travelling seems to help me eliminate the noise around me and think clearly. It’s almost like when I travel; I have this comfort I feel, this fire that’s light in my soul, and every time I have a trip, I wish I could do more. But like the time before, I don’t. I make excuses all the time for why I can’t go to places and do things that my heart so yearns for.

The trip I took today made me realize that I have so much fear in me that’s holding me back from functioning at my fullest potential. For starters, I'm single and not searching because I want to go on this glorious journey of self-discovery and development, so when I meet my Handsome Pacha, I’m really for him. And while this might be a reason why I don’t want to date or be in a relationship with anyone right now, it’s a cop-out for the real reason why I’m single. I’m scared... scared to death that I won’t be enough, and the person will realize who I am and not like it. That I will fall deeply in love with someone, and they will squish my heart into a thick sticky past under their feet. So much stuff, but I’m just afraid.

So how do I know that me being single is a colour, you may be asking? Well, when I look at this last year, and I think of how many ways I have tried to take time to develop myself and address issues from past relationships, it becomes evident to me that that’s not the reason I am single; there’s more. Now don’t get me wrong, I know I’m a fantastic human being who will 💯 be an asset to whoever I end up with. And yes, I know I’m as thick as a snicker, but she cute. I know I’m smart and ambitious and driven and all that fancy stuff. But I still have this irrational fear. This fear stretches out to my commitment to Social relationships, my job, school, my business, and the list can go on and on.

Solo trips, for me, are a necessity, not just a want. I need them to ground me and allow me to think critically about the things I say and the things that I do. What I think I am doing versus why I’m doing it. So my encouragement to you is for you to take a trip out by yourself, maybe to the movies or a restaurant you have meant to try. Bring a notebook and pen and take some time to think. You may find that you live in a false reality, or better yet, notice that you are growing and in alignment with your goals and dreams.

Quote of the day:

“The woman who follows the crowd will usually go no further than the crowd. The woman who walks alone is likely to find herself in places no one has ever been before.” – Albert Einstein

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